When Na Ke Xia walked into the carriage, all the passengers were like silent images. The train was running in the boundless universe, and there was a deep black outside the window. Occasionally, starlight flashed by, like people’s hope, briefly lit up in the hopeless journey, and then quickly extinguished. In the carriage, there was silence, no one broke the calm, as if everyone had become accustomed to walking alone on the edge of the universe.
He knew what he was going to do – every goal, every breakthrough, every collection of light cones, was to force himself out of this loneliness. Only by moving forward and fighting can the void that no one can understand be filled. But he also knew that the void would never be filled.
The train was like a huge maze, everyone was spinning here, and everyone had an unspeakable dream. Na Ke Xia didn’t know what his dream was, what the light cone was, and why it was so important in this journey? Every time he collected a little material, he felt a little calmer, but soon, he fell into the inescapable feeling of emptiness again.
1. Every train is a ferry of fate
Nakexia understood that he had never really chosen this journey, or in other words, in the face of all the choices, he was like a chess piece at the mercy of fate, powerless and hopeless. What is the meaning of the light cone? Is it the direction of life, some answer that has never been revealed, or just to make him forget the loneliness at the moment?
The train travels through the endless tracks of the universe, and each station carries an unclear promise, as if telling him: There is a world waiting for you to discover ahead. However, what is this world? Is it to comfort his inner loneliness, or to escape from the past that he cannot bear?
Perhaps, all this is just the arrangement of fate, or in other words, this road has been destined, and Nakexia is powerless to change it. In every journey and every battle, he does not pursue victory, but just to reach another unknown platform to meet those unspeakable doubts.
“What are you looking for?” he asked himself, but he had no answer in his heart. Those light cones are floating targets, like countless lighthouses, which not only guide the way forward, but also make the inner confusion clearer. Every breakthrough may just be to temporarily relieve the pain. It’s like a dream in the wilderness, it seems that there is no exit, but I don’t want to wake up.
2. Collection of light cones: endless hope and disappointment
The light cone is the only guide for Na Kexia on this journey, but it doesn’t seem to be something that can give him an answer. Every time he collects light cones, he doesn’t feel excited or accomplished, but deeply tired, like a deep pit that can’t be filled. Na Kexia knows that the light cone is just a symbol, a vain goal that can’t be reached, but can’t be given up.
The light cone brings him not liberation, but an endless pursuit. Every time he collects new light cone materials, the emptiness in his heart is temporarily filled, but every time a new emptiness appears, he has to start this seemingly endless journey again. He never seriously thought about the meaning of the light cone, or rather, he simply did not have the courage to face the fear buried deep in his heart.
The symbol of the light cone is the desire that humans never satisfy, a pursuit, and the existence of “must do, but can never really achieve”. Na Kexia knew that he was just playing a futile game. He walked through every platform between the stars and picked up every light cone forever.
“What am I pursuing?” He asked himself in his heart, but no matter what, he had no answer. This unsolvable emptiness is the most painful.
3. Na Kexia’s loneliness: wandering between dreams and reality
The speed of the train has never changed, and the starlight outside the window has never really changed. Na Kexia sometimes feels that he is an eternal traveler, walking on this track all the time, but never stopping. Every arrival did not bring any answers, but only made him more lost.
Loneliness is the biggest enemy in his heart. No matter how he fights or breaks through, he can’t escape the loneliness that goes deep into his bones. That Kexia didn’t need others to understand him, and what he pursued was not the comfort that others could give him. His loneliness was a road to the end alone, regardless of anyone, and regardless of whether he could reach it.
Every platform was a short stop, a short escape. But every time he set out again, he would find that loneliness still entangled him. Even if there were people sitting around him, they were just the background, like a blurred image in the distance, untouchable.
“What kind of road is this?” He asked himself softly, the train in front of him seemed to be carrying some kind of curse, always moving forward, but never a moment of peace.
4. Conclusion: The ultimate meaning and endless pursuit
That Kexia never found the answer, maybe he would never find it. The light cones he collected could not become the key to answer everything after all, and he himself would eventually become a meteor on this track, disappearing at the end of the universe.
As Zhang Ailing said in “Love in a Fallen City”: “If a person can get a little warmth and comfort in this world, he is lucky.” Na Kexia’s luck may not be that he can finally find his direction, but that he still insists on going on, still trying to find some possibility on this lonely track.
At the end of this universe, the light cone may not give an answer, but Na Kexia’s existence itself is a pursuit that never gives up. Even if he can’t find the goal, he will continue to go until the end of the starlight, until the last fragment of the light cone.
Life is like this: whether you can reach the end or not, going on is always the most important thing.